I'm not so sure how I feel about the notion of love at first sight, which I guess is sort of strange, seeing as I'm a hopeless romantic and all. I think I used to think there was such a thing, until I was able to differentiate love from lust, and then I realized that everything I believed was just... a bit different than I'd originally thought. I didn't love him. I lusted him. And discovering that kind of threw me for a loop. But that was years ago, and I've since been able to pinpoint my feelings to a tee, when it comes to everyone. I'm one of those girls who crushes easily, falls in love easily, and can hardly throw any of those emotions away in any prompt amount of time.
Chemistry. My problem, is that I feel it with everyone. I'd tell you I have chemistry with my gardener, and I wouldn't be lying to you. So deciphering who can make me happy is a struggle, every day, because on some level, I believe that tons of people possess qualities that could make me insatiably happy. The real project here, is mentally sewing a string of those qualities together, deciding just how happy that individual could make me. It seems completely calculated, I know. Isn't chemistry something you should just feel? But what happens when your feelings aren't all that selective? Your feelings are sluts!
Most times, the chemistry is there for you. If you don't see Rachel Berry fireworks in your kiss, or don't get butterflies in your stomach when he lays his head on your shoulder, it's probably just... not chemistry. But when you experience those mushy-gushy feelings for multiple people (and at this point in the post, I'm biting my nails, hoping I'm not the only one) it's your job to figure out what makes lust
And what makes love.
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